It's like I'm always whining. It's irritating. I couldn't get Jade Coppel off my mind today for some flipping reason and I was VERY close to texting her and apologizing and seeing if I could make amends. Finally my pride has taken hold and I didn't. Why should I be the one always apologizing?! Sure I'm wrong alot of the time...but so is everyone else. No one is perfect...and certainly not that self-centered woman.
She was always claiming I couldn't keep my promisises and how I was always lying. Sure I didn't keep a few...but she failed to keep ANY of her important ones. Always be there, my ass, try to be friends, my ass, never give up...my ass...
WHY is it that I tend to focus ont he good with that? I can only focus on the great things she did, and I seem to forget how she was really mean alot of the time. I can't focus on how she broke up with me on v-day, or how she was pushy with things, and how she always making me feel like shit, or even how bad the sex was...
I'm 100% convinced that sex is what fucked us over. Without that none of this shit would have happened, and I didn't want to have sex. But she guilt tripped me into it. I should have known then. Such is life though.
I just want to know why....is that so much to ask/want?
I'm going to go eat now. that should help.
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